Melancholy moment...

Rob is TDY for a week. Kids are in bed early because they were being cranky. I am lonely and bored. Also anxiously awaiting news and pictures of mini-miller. I am feeling nostalgic and missing all of my friends from back home. I wish I could be there and see all of your beautiful babies. I suppose these feelings will only get worse if/when Rob goes on a 6 month deployment (which he is very likely to do after the first of the year). I guess at that point I will really be earning my stripes as a military spouse, since I have been so lucky as to not have had to endure anything longer than a couple of weeks seperation since our wedding. I have to say though that reading your blogs has been wonderful. It is so nice to know what is going on in the busy lives of people I once was close to and still consider very good friends. It's funny how we all grow up and move on, some stay in touch and others fall away. I feel like I fell away, but I never really wanted to and now long for connections that I may never be able to recover. I guess thats just the melancholy talking. I think its time for some ice cream and a comedy.

kids say cutest things

OK, so Rob played the saxophone in highschool and since then it has been living in its case under our bed. Yesterday, the kids were playing with their recorders (thanks a lot Auntie Shar) and he decides to get it out and show them. So he puts it together and plays a few notes, lets the kids try to blow on it (funny in its own right) and then tries to play Mary had a Little Lamb. Zoe calls out the name of the tune then laughs and says, "That's a groovy instrument, Dad!"

Whats been going on

Took the kids to the state fair on Tuesday. They had a blast. Zoe rode all the rides that she was tall enough to get on. Thankfully the only fit that we had was because she got "frusterated"-her word- that she couldn't ride on one of the other rides. In other news I had ear "surgery" today. Had another tube placed in my right ear, so now I can hear. Yay for hearing! Now my children seem even louder than they did before, hmm now I think I need earplugs for at least part of the time in order to keep my sanity...but that could just be the left over drugs talking. Speaking of drugs, the anethstesia provided me with a much needed nap - I'm thinking about getting surgery weekly. Hm. I'm starving.........

So much for Voodoo

Rejected by the art show. Feeling even more depressed. So much for putting myself out there. I think for now I would rather lock myself in here.

Back on the horse (so to speak)

After a few grueling days of hard core feeling sorry for myself and fighting the uncessant urge to just give up, I have put myself and my artwork back out there. Today I mailed off my artist packet to 3 more galleries in the area. I am still waiting to hear back from an arts/crafts show that I applied for months ago (word should be coming this week). Again with the fingers crossed, prayer, voodoo whatnot. I really just feel like I need some positive response from the art world. A change to show and sell my art would be a step in the right direction. As for those of you who have expressed your support - Thank you. I needed every bit of it. Its so depressing to put a piece of yourself out there to be judged by a very harsh and demanding public. So I guess mild depression goes with the territory. At least I still have both of my ears, however poorly the right one still hears.

Rejection sucks

Got rejected by 50 Penn Place Gallery. Sad.

Back to school

"Oh, back to school, back to school....." Zoe's first day as a "Sunbeam" (K-4, Preschool). After a timid meeting with her teachers yesterday I was a bit worried that their would be crying and prying from the legs on todays menu (even that would beat hallucinating about giant penguins, I suppose). I was pleasantly surprised when she ran right in and said good morning to her teachers and gave one of them a hug! Social butterfly spreads her wings. Sydney still gets one more year of mommy-time before she gets to go to preschool (3yrs old variety).